It’s been a while since I posted, even longer since I actually wrote anything to go on here, which was the purpose of this blog in the first place.
So, a life update! What’s been happening?
Besides the obvious (coronavirus) I spent the first part of the year working retail, and thankfully made some brilliant friends that made it entirely worthwhile. My peak in that job, I think, was crying behind a Mont Blanc pen stand, trying to ensure no-one saw me. Not sure it worked.
Then, after a couple of months of uncertainty, I lost the job. It was only ever temporary, but it had looked positive until suddenly, it didn’t.
And then, all of a sudden, I took a solo trip to London, with plans to go again as soon as I could, and afterwards, I got sick. By the time I was better, England had started their attempt at a ‘lockdown’. I haven’t really been anywhere since.
It’s been weird! Since then, I’ve completed a lot of online courses in an attempt to be productive. I tried to relearn French and start learning Korean, to varying degrees of success. I’ve been trying to get back into a couple of musical instruments. I’ve watched an embarrassing amount of Netflix. Most of all, I’ve taken many, many, many photos, and been pretty anxious the whole way through. I got back into art, too – particularly digital art, which is one thing that’s definitely been rewarding during the pandemic.
This month, I started a new job. I registered as self-employed, and I’m taking on work as a transcriber. It feels like a big step, trying to source some income through this, but the little work I’ve done so far feels rewarding, and I feel like I have more of a purpose now.
The main struggle I’ve had is feeling disconnected from friends. To a degree, I’m more involved that I have been in over a year. With one group of friends, we are slotting in a movie night and a quiz night a week. With others – some of them far closer in distance, we’ve barely spoken. I struggle to find motivation to keep conversations going online, and know I’m definitely not holding my side of the friendship up as much as I should be. It’s hard, sometimes, to find a balance between talking too much and talking too little. Or at least it is for me!
Ignoring the disruption that covid has caused, I’d like to start writing on here again. I worry a lot about what people think of me and it can stop me doing what I enjoy, when I let it. I’m hoping to post about photography, travel, and just little odd blog posts here and there from now on!